New York Giants kicker Josh Brown has been placed on the commissioner's exempt list due to new details emerging regarding his abuse of his ex-wife. Brown is unlikely to play in the NFL again.
Here is what Brown wrote in his own journals and a letter to friends. SNY first released excerpts of Brown's notes.
"I have physically, mentally emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man. I have abused my wife."
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"I have been a liar for most of my life. I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero.
"Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and I hurt Molly (Brown) physically emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave."
"I have controlled her by making her feel less human than me, and manipulated her with money. I have disregarded my step-sons'feelings and they have witnessed me abusing their mother."
"I viewed pornography on a consistent basis to manage my desire for physical contact. I developed into a sexual deviant that viewed sex as a sport all most (sic)."
"I am sure there were several moments of panic for the boys and wondering if they were in a safe place with me. I am sure you were afraid to tell me how you truly felt because you feared my reaction."
"I have struck fear in your heart and not love, compassion or friendship. From the bruise on your leg when we argued ... to the zipper that caught you last April. I am ashamed and disgraced to call myself a husband."