Rihanna admits that she feels “embarrassed” by her past relationship with Chris Brown, but she doesn’t think she’ll never speak to him again.

“I can’t see myself never speaking to him again. There’s emotion there. I think it’s possible to change,” the singer tells Glamour magazine. “It’s embarrassing that I fell in love with that person. He was my first big love and the more in love we became, the more dangerous we became for one another.”