In his suicide note, 18-year-old Conrad Roy III told Michelle Carter, the now 20-year-old on trial for involuntary manslaughter, that he loved her and appreciated her “effort and kindness” toward him.
Prosecutors say that Carter, then 17, persuaded her boyfriend Roy to commit suicide even though he had expressed doubts.
Roy was found dead in his truck, which was parked in a Fairhaven parking lot, of carbon monoxide poisoning on July 13, 2014.
Roy’s suicide notes — one to Carter and one to his father — were presented in Bristol County Juvenile Court on Tuesday, the final day of Carter’s trial.
“I can’t take the pain,” Roy wrote to his father, according to the Boston Globe. “I did this to be finally happy … I don’t feel like I belong here.”
He added that he would see his father in heaven, according to court documents, and urged that “Everyone be happy. Work hard for me because that’s what I want and live life to the fullest even though I am cutting it short.”
Roy also wrote to Carter that they will meet up “someday in heaven.” The note reads:
Keep strong in tough times. You taught me how to be strong and carry on. This life has been too challenging and troublesome to me but I’ll forever be in your heart and we will meet up someday in Heaven. Put your best foot forward and your chin held up high. Our songs. Listen to them and remember me. Take anything from my room at my moms/dads to remind you of me. You’ll get there, I’m sorry about everything. I am messed up I guess. I wish I could express my gratitude but I feel brain dead. I love you and greatly appreciate ur effort and kindness towards me. Keep your heart beating, and keep pushing forward. Go on YouTube type in Rocky Balboa quote, and let the light guide you.
I <3 you The prosecution and defense made their closing arguments on Tuesday. Carter, from Plainville, had waived her right to a jury. Judge Lawrence Moniz said he will announce his decision on Wednesday.